Full-Blown Suffering: My Fight Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain behind one eye that lasts up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Justin Jones
Justin Jones

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